Fann-tas-tic

2007-04-03T16:53:00.000+08:00

Today, i feel lost..really lost..i dun know wad to do..darlin is so busy..darlin got his problem..i cant help anything..i feel down..i need him..dun know wad to do..
I cant let him know that i am sad..he needs my support..mentally..but i cant stop that feeling come over me..i jus wan to be like before..darlin with me all the time..
I am really lost without him..my heart is crying..
Now he dun have time with me..even at night, even he is in cafe..he dun have time with me..
I feel that he is so far away from me now..even he on9 in skype, he dun tok much..not like before anymore..I wan my darlin back..*sob sob*..

Back to blog again~

2007-04-02T12:45:00.000+08:00

Hi all~ me back to blog again..stop cause of laziness..Now I'm back..
I am playing maple all the time..chionging level and now finally level 120~ YAY!
Recently,my darlin is very busy on his work..hence,not much time to be wif me though..
but he once told me : "I may not be wif lin all the time, but I luv lin all the time.."This really keep me warm in heart when he is busy..and deep down in my heart..i know he loves me..jus that i need his companie all the time..
This morning, i have updated my friendster..read some of my friends' blog..later will be back to maple again..

~Started with a kiss~

2006-12-29T10:44:00.000+08:00

Sing with darlin..

2006-12-23T14:12:00.000+08:00

This is the song my darlin ask me to learn so that we can sing together..omg..my voice is terrible de..but for my darlin..i'll learn :p

~~My Love~~

2006-12-22T09:21:00.000+08:00

Holidays holidays~~

2006-12-04T09:01:00.000+08:00

Well..its december again..time flies..I'll be going to HongKong on 13th dec for 3D2N holidays..Its SHOPPING N SHOPPING time! :p

Christmas is round the corner too..headache on choosing presents :p

Time really flies..this christmas..same as usual..i'll be celebrating it with my family and grandmama in california..

This Gift- From my darlin

2006-12-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

This is the gift my darlin gave me..it worth more than a thousand words and it express my darlin's feeling to me..i'll cherish it for my life..i am touch by it..love u ..darlin..

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/77462ht.htm

This Gift
The snow is fallin', the city is white
Your eyes are shining like diamonds tonight
And we're all alone there's no one home
You're finally in my arms again
The night is silent and christmas is here
I couldn't ask for more than having you near 'cause i love you girl and i always will And now i know the moment is right 'cause i've been waiting to give this gift tonight I'm down on my knees, there's no better time
It's something to last for as long as i live
Tonight i'm gonna give you All my heart can give I thought i'd give you something shiny and new
I tried to find something worthy of you But i realized when i looked inside There's some things that money can't buy I feel the magic whenever you're near I feel it even more this time of the year 'cause i love you girl, i always will And now i know the moment is right You know i'll always be true to you And you know i'm the one you can turn to Anytime, anyplace, or anywhere You know that i'll always be there

Special Night

2006-11-25T10:23:00.000+08:00

This is the song i've spend my special night with my darlin..the special night is so unforgetable and romantic..

Never ever

2006-11-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

"Never Ever"
A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection? Not only will your answers keep me sane but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find
My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a dazeI feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate
I'll take a shower, I will scourI will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah
Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting'Cause I heard that this feeling won't last that long
Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right
I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah
Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy,I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting'Cause I heard that this feeling won't last that long
Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right x4
You can tell me to my face,You can tell me on the phone, Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to knowYou can tell me to my faceYou can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know
You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

Boring

2006-10-31T12:01:00.000+08:00

Woo~~ long time never blog le..cos i lazy :p
not really la..hehe..just that i always maple all these days..nothing much happen these few days..jus feel that need him alot n miss him alot..
Yesterday, i keep sneezing non stop..OMG..someone miss me?? :p think i gonna sick le :(..haiz..
Grandmama is not feeling good..i am so scared i'm gonna lose her anytime..she knows me well and understand me..i cant lose her..really cant..
I am very close to her..she is a good listener..and she promise me to meet my darlin..grandmama..i love u..

Reborn again

2006-10-13T15:36:00.000+08:00

Have not been blogging since few days le..this few days alot of things happen to me..I nearly lost someone that means so much to me..and my life nearly ends..but lucky all were over now..here i am a reborn person..i feel reborn cos i change my view of points..my views of seeing things are change in a certain way..and i feel that it is good..for me at least..

Wisdom

2006-10-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

Wisdom doesn't automatically come with old age.
Nothing does - except wrinkles.
Its true, some wines improve with age,
but only if the grapes were good in the first place.

Dying

2006-10-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

I was admitted to hosiptal this morning at 5am..having asthma..chest pain..headache..whole body weak..it was like dying out of breathe..the first thing that come to my mind was,am i going to die?..i want my darlin here..
Alot of ppl admitted to hosiptal due to the haze too..most of them are kids with breathing difficulties..there are some old folks too..Now the PSI hits 143! OMG...I'm gonna stay at home,else will be dying out of breathe..
At abt 4pm,doctor told me that i can be discharged..
Mummy and daddy were so worried abt till mummy cry out..sometimes i feel that i like a burden to my parents..always made them worry abt my health..I know i am different from others cos of my sickness..but i am trying hard to have a normal life and trying really hard to be happy..at least made my parents happy..another person who worries about me is my darlin..I know he hurt the most when he know that i am sick or not feeling well or sth..
I am really very fortune to have them care for me..especially my darlin..although he cant be by my side everytime but i can feel that he is with me all the time..as he had told me..he is always with me..
This year mooncake festival was surrounded by haze..hope it will get better..

Mooncake Festival

2006-10-05T12:42:00.000+08:00

Mooncakes have played a central role in Moon Festival traditions. Once, according to Chinese legend, mooncakes helped bring about a revolution. The time was the Yuan dynasty (AD 1280-1368), established by the invading Mongolians from the north. The Mongolians subjugated the Han Chinese.
According to one Chinese folk tale, a Han Chinese rebel leader named Liu Fu Tong devised a scheme to arouse the Han Chinese to rise up against the ruling Mongols to end the oppressive Yuan dynasty. He sought permission from Mongolian leaders to give gifts to friends as a symbolic gesture to honor the longevity of the Mongolian emperor. These gifts were round mooncakes. Inside, Liu had his followers place pieces of paper with the date the Han Chinese were to strike out in rebellion -- on the fifteenth night of the eighth month.
Thus Liu got word to his people, who when they cut open the mooncakes found the revolutionary message and set out to overthrow the Mongols, thus ending the Yuan dynasty.
Today, far from the exotic and heroic legends, Chinese communities all over the world make and consume mooncakes during the traditional autumn Moon Festival. In San Francisco’s Chinatown, during the eighth annual Moon Festival, many stores will be selling modern-day mooncakes, the continuation of an honored tradition.

Bad Day

2006-10-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

Today i bought 2 maple ppc..after the server check of maple, i happily login to buy 15 gachapon from there.But...haizh..my bad luck today..get all junks!!!JUNKS!!!(*sob sob*)
Mooncake festival is round the corner..i eat TOO MUCH mooncakes till my tummy show..OMG!! Gonna slim my tummy le..but lazy to exercise...how?-.-
But the mooncakes are so irresistable..so tempting..
I eat mostly all ice-cream mooncakes..die le..cant wear my fav bikinis anymore...:(
What i should do from today onwards is to go on diet..(Dun think i can stick to the plan -.-)
But i will try de...:p
My asthma come visit me so often recently..cos of the haze due to burning of trees in indonesia..haiz.
It was like dying out of breath..GOD please help reduce the haze..-.-
My darlin give me a secure feel once again..cos i feel that he is so far away from me..due to his bz schedule..and he is always trying to assure me of it..i like the feel of begin so close to him..love his care and attentions..i know he is trying hard to give me all that..i love u darlin...

I lay my love on you

2006-10-03T11:06:00.000+08:00

just a smile and the rain is gone can hardly believe it (yeah) there's an angel standing next to me reaching for my heart just a smile and there's no way back can hardly believe it (yeah) but there's an angel, she's calling me reaching for my heart i know, that i'll be ok now this time it's real i lay my love on you it's all i wanna do everytime i breathe i feel brand new you open up my heart show me all your love, and walk right through as i lay my love on you i was lost in a lonely place could hardly even believe it (yeah) holding on to yesterdays far, far too long now i believe its ok cause this time it's real i lay my love on you it's all i wanna do everytime i breathe i feel brand new you open up my heart show me all your love, and walk right through as i lay my love on you i never knew that love could fell so good like once in a lifetime you change my world i lay my love on you you make me feel brand new show me all your love, and walk right through as i lay my love on you i lay my love on you it's all i wanna do everytime i breathe i feel brand new you open up my heart show me all your love, and walk right through as i lay my love on you i lay my love on you you make me feel brand new you open up my heart show me all your love, and walk right through as i lay my love on you as i lay my love on you

My Stuff

2006-10-02T14:00:00.000+08:00

This earring is a prezzie from celest..

This is my messy desk in my room..

This is my bdae prezzie from auntie jane..

This is my bdae prezzie from grandmama..

Worries

2006-10-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

Sunday morning..nice and warm day..as usual i login my msn and check my mails..set my maple char to open store..then me and my mummy head over to my grandma house.Coz she had a minor day surgery a few days ago..her wound cant be stitch due to advice from doctor..She look pale and her movements was quite slow and i can feel her pain..my eyes turn red whenever i saw her trying to move or get sth..mummy so worry abt her..life is so unpredictable..you wun know what will happen to you anytime and anywhere..

Brand New Look

2006-09-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

Just got this new skin this morning..nice?:p
Its all pink cos i LOVE PINK :p
Took me hours to finished it -.-" so lan in this bloggy thing..
Darlin..view it once you got time ok? :p
My room just refurnish with my fav colour :p PINK!!
Crazy abt pink..mummy say gonna prepare for christmas le..to me its still a long way -.-but buying presents is a bery heahache task -.-"
Need to start shopping from now le..:p *thinking what present to buy for my darlin :p*
Feel free to leave comments abt my blogskins in my shoutout..thks =D

Delicated To My Darlin..

2006-09-29T15:52:00.001+08:00

Depressed

2006-09-29T13:10:00.000+08:00

I feel not good..really not good..I miss my grandmama..i miss my sis..i miss my godmummy and i miss my darlin..(wipe tears)
I dun like this feeling of missing my loved ones..
why things cant be the way we wanted it to be..
I dun know how to express my feelings in words..jus feeling bery sad..
I miss the days i have with my darlin..

Love Statement

2006-09-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

Statement of Love :
1) Kiss on the hand
I adore you
2) Kiss on the cheek
I just want to be friends
3) Kiss on the neck
I want you
4) Kiss on the lips
I love you
5) Kiss on the ears
I am just playing
6) Kiss anywhere else
lets not get carried away
7) Look in your eyes
Kiss me
8) Playing with your hair
I cant live without you
9) Hand on your waist
I love you too much to let you go

What A Day!

2006-09-28T12:27:00.000+08:00

Maplestory down for the whole day yesterday..This morning try to patch it..it was slow~~..haizh...Disconnected thousand of times..WT..
After the patching,maple got alot of problem popping out..1st is dc prob..2nd,the store..argh..need much more space for a small store..wt..

Darlin busy as usual..i try to find things to occupied my time..but still cant stop myself from missing him..

This morning come across my fren's blog..knowing that she loves a guy which he dun love her..what a sad thing..Its hard to find someone that loves you as you do..If you happen to find it..must treasure and cherish what you have..

My daddy and sis still in cold war since last year..haizh..i dun know how to patch them back together like the times we once have..Why things cant be the way we wanted to be..

What A joke!

2006-09-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

Today my darlin told me alot of jokes..that he never do it b4 :p

Two boys were arguing when the teacher entered the room. The teacher says, "Why are you arguing?" One boy answers, "We found a ten dollor bill and decided to give it to whoever tells the biggest lie." "You should be ashamed of yourselves," said the teacher, "When I was your age I didn't even know what a lie was." The boys gave the ten dollars to the teacher.

A teacher asked a student to write 55. Student asked: How? Teacher: Write 5 and beside it another 5! The student wrote 5 and stopped. teacher: What are you waiting for? student: I don't know which side to write the other 5!

A man receives a phone call from his doctor.The doctor says, "I have some good news and some bad news."The man says, "OK, give me the good news first."The doctor says, "The good news is, you have 24 hours to live."The man replies, "Oh no! If that's the good news, then what's the bad news?"The doctor says, "The bad news is, I forgot to call you yesterday."

A man walks into a shop and sees a cute little dog. He asks the shopkeeper, "Does your dog bite?" The shopkeeper says, "No, my dog does not bite." The man tries to pet the dog and the dog bites him. "Ouch!" He says, "I thought you said your dog does not bite!" The shopkeeper replies, "That is not my dog!"

An angry husband returned home one night to find his wife in bed with a naked man. 'What are you doing' he shouted. To which his wife said to her lover 'I told you he was stupid

Man : what is a million years like to you?God : Like a second.Man : what is a million dollar like to you?God : like a penny.Man : can I have a penny?God : just a second…

A Wife got home late from work, and found her husband lyingdown on the bed.
She looks at him and says:"Take off my shoes!""Yes darling." He replies, and takes off her shoes."Take off my dress!" says the wife."Yes darling." He says, and removes her dress."Take off my bra and knickers!" she then says."Yes darling." He replies, and takes them off.Then the wife says: "And don't let me catch you wearing them again

An old man was sitting on a park bench weeping and crying. A second man passing by stopped and asked what was wrong. The man crying answered:"Three months ago I met a beautiful 26 year old woman. I'm 78 years old. We hit it off so well she moved into my apartment with me. Every evening and every morning we make love. Not only that,but she cleans my apartment, cooks my meals and never asks for athing." The passerby asked, "That sounds great, why are you crying?" The old man answered, "I can't remeber where I live."

Teacher: Why are you late? Student: There was a man who lost a hundred dollar bill. Teacher: That's nice. Were you helping him look for it? Student: No. I was standing on it

A: I have the perfect son. B: Does he smoke? A: No, he doesn't. B: Does he drink whiskey? A: No, he doesn't. B: Does he ever come home late? A: No, he doesn't. B: I guess you really do have the perfect son. How old is he? A: He will be six months old next Wednesday.

Electricity Down

2006-09-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

Electricity down for abt 1 and a half hour this morning..time pass so slow without computer..Due to rewired construction..haizh..
OMG...jus send my darlin my ugliest pic ever...i dun noe where i get the courage to do this...but lucky..he din find it ugly :p
But keep pinch pinch me -.-"
Thinking of buying a puppy..but due to my asthma..i think its out of the question -.-..Grandmama called me this morning..happy to know that she is doing fine..She miss me and want me to visit her once i finished my exam..that will be end of the year..
Argh...Maplesea down for patch...6 long hours..omg..So Boring...

First Love

2006-09-26T10:52:00.000+08:00

I started playing habbo.sg since june 2005.God make me know this special habbo which is my darlin now during july. We started to know each other and fall in love.He is an amazing guy..he knows all my thinkings and thoughts..if i gave him a frown,he'll know what i want..AMAZING right?
We started to play maplesea since feb 2006..which is more exciting..we even married in maple..all our times are spend on internet games and call each other on phone during the night..everyday we do everythings 2gether.. i want to have all our memories everywhere we have been..

The most unforgetable thingy he did for me was wrote me his 1st love letter :p It was so touching and nearly make me cry out..i love u..darlin..

Recently he has been busy with his work..but he still try to spend as much time as he can with me..i am really touched by everything he did for me..really bery touched..my 1st love will last 4ever..:p

My First Blog

2006-09-25T14:28:00.000+08:00

Created this blog quite sometime ago but nv post anything yet. Today, cos my darlin bz with his work so try to express my some feeling in here.

Happen to read my fren's blog which is my darlin ex-gf. She is having some relation prob. thoughts come through my mind that could it be my darlin and her? wild thinking all rush in my mind..all of a sudden..
i know i should not think too much..my darlin love me so much..and i always know that..they are all over..He once told me..I am his present and future..

worried about my grandmama in california..she is not feeling good recently..I hope my sis is here with me..i need someone to talk to..

~~Fann-tas-tic~~